Friday, April 27, 2012

Drama Queen

Hey y'all.

It's stinking beautiful outside today and I have to sit in the library and write a paper. ON A FRIDAY AFTERNOON. But oh well, woe is me. 'Tis the life of a college student.

The bane of my existence. 
I just can't focus. And I just drank a whole java chip frap, so I'm going to be bouncing off the walls soon. I don't wanna write this paper. How bad would it really be to get a zero? Just kidding. (Or am I?)

Summer is SO CLOSE. Why can't it just be this time next week? Then I'll be done with my first year of college! Holy goodness. I can't believe it's almost over.

Anyways, sorry for the total randomness of this post. My mind is going way too fast right now.

OH! But guess what? I ran into my English teacher from last semester and she remembered my name and where I was from. She is too presh. It made my day.

Hope you guys are actually able to enjoy this beautiful day!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

The days drag on; the weeks fly by

Well, here it is. Exam time. I'm almost ready for exam week next week so I can focus on just one class at a time. This week has been such a crazy, hectic, study filled week and it's just Wednesday. It's one of those weeks that my mind is running at a mile a minute, which of course makes it so much harder to focus on just one assignment at a time. It's hard to even feel like I've made a dent in my school work, and the prospects of summer are hanging over my head. I feel like this. (Except summer is carrot.)

Small group :)
The idea of summer is also really bittersweet.... because I'm not coming back to UT next year. I'm going to be studying Youth Ministry at Eastern University next year! I'm very excited about it, but it's going to be hard to leave my friends at UT. I feel like I'm a senior in high school all over again. I know that the friendships that I have made at UT will last, though. I have the most amazing, supportive small group, and I cannot WAIT for reunions in the future. I know God placed each of us together for a reason. I have learned so much from these girls this year and we have all become so close. I'm so thankful for all of you. Christ's love flows from all of you in all you do. You are all fighting for Christ and that is reflected in your lives. I'm so blessed to call each and every one of you my friend.

I am also so thankful for their support in my decision to transfer. They have loved me and encouraged me throughout this whole process. I feel like this is what I'm supposed to do. Looking back, I'm so glad that I came to UT. I would never change anything about this year. I have learned so much about myself, I have grown SO much, and now, I know it's time to move on. It's time to turn and new page. I'm ready, Lord. Use me.

YOU are Beautifully and Wonderfully Made.


Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Testify to Love

Well hello there blogging world! It's been a while. I apologize for neglecting my poor little blog here, but thanks so much for still reading! It means so much :)

Anywho, I'm sitting up on the hill right now "studying" for my sociology exam, wishing that I would have brought my bible up here so I could do my quiet time in this beautiful weather. 

This week alone has been a very convicting one for me. I've realized how much I rely on my actions. My heart is so often not in what I do, even though my actions seem very "Christian." I somehow convince myself that I can earn the Lord's favor through my actions. I put myself up on a pedestal because I seem like such a "good person." I so often don't appreciate the depth of love that Jesus has for me. I focus so much on what it means for me to live for Him through my actions and I overlook the incredible GIFT of grace that he gave me, because he loves me so much.

There is so much on my heart right now. The Lord is breaking me in ways that I haven't been broken before. I'm struggling to put it into words, so I'm going to leave you with this song that never fails to touch my heart.

YOU are Beautifully and Wonderfully Made.